Following HIS plan.

While the kids were enjoying some Bubbles this afternoon on the porch, my mind kept wondering to the little life growing inside of me. I wondered if this one was another girl, or another boy. Taylor insists that its a girl, and that her name will be "Baby Girl". If it's a boy, I hate to be the one to break it to her. Hopefully it this one is another boy she takes the news well :).

As the kids were blowing bubbles, and spilling most of them, I wondered about all the things we need for this baby. You would think, after 2 pretty close together, we wou

ld have everything for either gender. Sadly, that isn't true. We need all clothes till size 18 month in boys, and ALL

sizes till like 3T in girl :/ We have no infant swing, our stroller is broken, if we can afford the stroller I want we need to buy the special infant carrier for it, then Ryder can be strapped in one seat and the infant carrier fit in the other, and all the cloth diapers we will need. Its all so over whelming when you think of it.

After I give another round of bubbles to the kids I began to remember the "Plan" I had set for 2012. I had EVERYTHING figured out. All the credit cards paid by December. All savings accounts full of money. Everything we needed for the kids and for the baby bought and ready when needed. David would get a weeks worth of vacation in July, the baby due in October so that would work out perfect. Etc.etc.etc.

But of course everything changed. We needed a bigger vehicle. That vehicle was expensive, and it eats gas like you wouldn't believe. And we have had to replace one tire already and now we are about to place even more things because it is randomly shutting off on us. :/ David only gets 1/2 a week vacation in July. That makes the time off for the new baby kinda iffy between Ryder's specialists appointments. And Ryder's health worries. And the fact that we do not have the will power to pay off the credit cards. Something ALWAYS comes up when we finally get money back onto those credit cards. What's that saying? Don't cry over spilled milk? Does that work with bubbles too?

After Taylor spilled her bubbles and threw a massive fit which involved crying and screaming, it hit me. Most of the things I am worrying about right now, will not matter in 1 year, or 10 years. Just like the bubbles. We will figure out how to clean up the mess/get everything we need for the kids and move on. This year isn't going according to MY plan. It's going according to God's plan. His Plan. Not mine. And He will make sure everything happens just as it's supposed to. Every little thing that pop up, its not a surprise to Him. He knows what I can handle and he knows what I can not handle. Everything happens for a reason. And even though I do not see a reason for alot of things right now, later on I will. And if I can't figure out the reason later on, then its just spilled milk. Clean it up, and get on with life. In 5 years, the things I'm worrying about right now will be NOTHING. (Besides Ryder's health. I just keep praying that this new medicine works and he gets better, BUT the Lord has a plan for Ryder and his health as well).

And, even though we can not get the couple credit cards that we have paid off, at least we have money on them when we NEED it. It all works out some how. So, while I sit here now looking at the prices of double strollers, infant carriers, new cloth diapers, more baby clothes adn the kids clothes, and breast pump, infant swing etc. I need to remember that the Lord has blessed me with two wonderful children who mean everything to me. And another little blessing in the making. And He GAVE me these children to love. Not to worry about how we will afford them. The Lord will provide for us. Everything always works out, some how.