I've been pretty stressed lately. Morning sickness kicked in over a week ago. Its been rough. The house is never clean any more, the kids wear Pjs just about all day, and I haven't cooked in over a week. Yeah, its been a long week here. lol

I haven't had time, or the energy really, to read my bible much lately. (I feel horrible, I have SO MUCH to be thankful for and I can't even work in 10 minutes to read the bible daily? I gotta work on that). Anyways.

I asked God to lead me some where in the bible. Some thing that He wants me to read.

And He did!

I randomly opened the bible to Proverbs 22. Here are some notes I wrote down while reading :

Proverbs 22: 2 Rich and the poor have this in common, The Lord is the Maker of them all.

Proverbs 22: 4 Humility and the fear of the Lord bring wealth and honor and life.

Proverbs 22:17 - 19 Pay attention and listen to the sayings of the wise; apply your heart to what I teach, 18 for it is pleasing when you keep them in your heart and have all of them ready on your lips. 19 So that your trust may be in the Lord, I teach you today, even you.

All of those really stuck out to me! I've had ALOT of my mind, money, kids, house, and trying to fit in more bible time. The last verses related to me - I need to read and study my bible MORE. And the first and second verses connected with me where I have been worrying so much about money.

I mean, don't we all worry about money? ALOT? I know I do. Its constantly on my mind. How am I going to cover all the bills, and still have money left over? How am I going to get money into savings if we have ot keep taking money OUT of savings? Its a never ending process really. lol But, I need to learn to pray about it more. Give all to God and let him work on it for me. Why? Because he knows what is best for my family. I think I do, but really I have no idea. He does tho. SO I need to rely on him more. Pray before making decisions etc. And I'm going to do my best to do so from now on!

I also read a little passage out of my study bible about what we consider as "wealth" and what God considers as "wealth". Here is what I wrote down from it.

God's inheritance isn't about quarterly dividens, rather its about the heart. In God's eyes, spiritual riches are acquired by being rich toward him, by exhibiting a humble reverence for his awesome holiness.

Just thought I would share this. :)

Respect your husband.

David and I have been together 5 years, 6 years this November. We've been married for 3 years, 4 years this October. And I love him with all my heart. But, do I respect him? I can honestly say that just a couple days ago, I did not respect him. And honestly, I may never have really respected him. I had never thought of it really. I mean, I'm home all day. I make all the decisions, about EVERYTHING, I do not take his opinion seriously on many things, okay most things(because I always thought my way was best). I didn't want to do things he wanted to do, because I had things I wanted to do. I didn't really listen to him talk, about anything. Like work, or something that he enjoys like his video games. I just also tuned him out to continue what ever I was doing. Because I thought it wasn't very important. And it may not be important to me, but it is important to him. So I need to make it important to me.

I was reading in my bible about respecting your husband. I found alot of useful information.

Proverbs 14:1- The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish pulls it down with her hands.

In my study bible it says this about that verse : Every wife has the power to create or destroy her relationship with her husband.

The day that I found this David and I were in an argument about something personal. But I just couldn't figure out WHY he couldn't see my side of the argument? And we have had this same argument for years. And it gets very tiring having the same argument every couple weeks. So I went to my bible and looked for verses related to marriage. I came across the one above. "The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish pulls it down with her hands". A wise woman works it out with her husband, understands HIS side and trys to cooperate so that way both are happy. But the foolish one refuses to see the other side, thinks that her side is the right side no matter what. And I was the foolish one!

Ephesians 5:33- Nevertheless, let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.

Respect. Wives need to respect their husbands. Why? Men are difficult :) Honestly. We all know that! LOL Men need respect, espically(sp?) from their wives. Its kinda like how women need love, they need to feel loved, well men need to be respected. And they need to feel that they are respect. When men are respected they feel good about themselves, they are confident, and they get strength from it. I'm always telling David he needs to show me he loves me more, because sometimes I get caught up in MOMMY role that I just dont feel very loved as a WIFE. Well, in the aspect, I need to show David more respect. He is my husband, my best friend, and I need to respect him in any way possible.

I read those verses a few days ago, and I prayed and read some more. I decided that I was going to start respecting David more. And guess what, we are both alot happier now! :) And its not hard! I just listen to him, talk to him about the thigns that he likes, instead of it always being about ME or the kids. I ask him for his opinions on things, and I wait for an answer. Before, he woudl just say something, anything, because he knew I wasn't paying attention really. And now we both talk about decisions that need to be made and we do it together. We are both still working on our relationship. But, one thing I can really contribute is respect for him.